Omnishambles

I appreciate the honesty of being told that a school has no experience with an older autistic child.  I'm just not sure how I feel about my child being the test case - especially since I am personally aware of at least three special-needs children who left the school at junior high.  What does that say about a school?  Maybe there aren't any older autistic students because they left when it was clear the school was ill equipped to educate them?

I received another call from the social worker yesterday about something that was completely avoidable.  There was a meeting with Morley during lunch today.  I wrote an email asking if I could attend, I didn't hear back, so Jesse and I just showed up.  It was while we were walking to meet Morley that I asked if they had experience with autistic children.  Like I said, I appreciate the honesty.  Morley was smiling by the end of the meeting, but that's because he can't pick up on the fact that they were talking to him like he was a preschooler.  Me?  I managed not to say any variations of "you fucking fuckwit" to the social worker; however, I knew I veered very firmly into the "terse bitch" category at times, but Jesse reassures me that it was fine because I was angry that they weren't enforcing rules properly.

To be fair to the social worker, it wasn't her fault.  She was doing damage control.  She seems like a lovely person and actually reminds me of my cousin who is a teacher.  Still, get your shit together and get your people in line.

So, where does this leave us?  I am tired.  I am stressed.  I knew I wanted to work with Morley's school in Scotland; I respected them.  I have so much disdain for even the best American public school that I'm not sure I can keep this up.